Decision

After for so long, i guess its time for me to forget you and move on. How silly can i be when i waited for you for so long, and not to get into any relationship. Because i know that i still love you. No matter how hard i try, sometimes when i like a girl, it will always be that they have the same personality as you. Why is this even happening to me ? I really hope i can put you down and move on. Maybe i might even end my life one day just to forget you. Haha... :') Hope you and him last long. And he will be your happiness. :') I will always keep the memories i had. even if i were to lost my memories.希望你会与他幸福.

This song keeps replaying and making me remember the past memories of you... :'(

不确定就别亲吻 
感情很容易毁了一个人
一个人若不够狠 
爱淡了不离不弃多残忍

你留下来的垃圾 
我一天一天总会丢完的
我甚至真心真意的祝福 
永恒在你的身上先发生

你还是要幸福 
你千万不要再招惹别人哭
所有错误从我这里落幕 
别跟着我 铭心 刻骨

你还是要幸福 
我才能确定我还得很清楚
确定自己再也不会占据 
你的篇幅
明天 开始 
这一切都结束

还我钥匙的备份 
我觉得再见可以很单纯
我甚至真心真意的祝福 
永恒在你的身上先发生

你还是要幸福 
你千万不要再招惹别人哭
所有错误从我这里落幕 
别跟着我 铭心 刻骨

你还是要幸福 
我才能确定我还得很清楚
确定自己再也不会占据 
你的篇幅
明天 开始 
这一切都结束

你还是要幸福 
你千万不要再招惹别人哭
所有错误从我这里落幕 
别跟着我 铭心 刻骨

你如果很幸福 
半夜的简讯我就无需回覆
因为你的悲喜已经有了 
容身之处 我也 能有 
最纯粹的孤独

This song keeps replaying and making me remember the past memories of you... :'(

不确定就别亲吻

感情很容易毁了一个人

一个人若不够狠

爱淡了不离不弃多残忍

你留下来的垃圾

我一天一天总会丢完的

我甚至真心真意的祝福

永恒在你的身上先发生

你还是要幸福

你千万不要在招惹别人哭

所有错误从我这里落幕

别跟着我 铭心 刻骨

你还是要幸福

我才能确定我还得很清楚

确定自己再也不会占据你的篇幅

明天 开始 这一切都结束

还我钥匙的备份

我觉得再见可以很单纯

我甚至真心真意的祝福

永恒在你的身上先发生

你还是要幸福

你千万不要在招惹别人哭

所有错误从我这里落幕

别跟着我 铭心 刻骨

你还是要幸福

我才能确定我还得很清楚

确定自己再也不会占据你的篇幅

明天 开始 这一切都结束

你还是要幸福

你千万不要在招惹别人哭

所有错误从我这里落幕

别跟着我 铭心 刻骨

你如果很幸福

半夜的简讯我就不需回复

因为你的悲喜已经有了 容身之处

我也 能有

最纯粹的孤独 最孤独 的 孤独

I know that after trashing everything out , you are hurt by it. I can sense it. Even if you dont wanna tell me. But deep down in my heart, i feel abit unease and worried. Why is this even happening? Oh Father please enlighten me. Have i really done wrong ? :/

Zijun told me to slap you right in the face, but im just holding back. Like what you said " Ni she de mah?" the question is, will i do it? im holding back. whatever it is, i can assure you one thing. GIRL, YOU ARE MAKING ME CONFUSE ! JUST WTF ARE YOU TRYING TO DO OR THNKING ??!?!?!?!

One thing that i want to say. Is it me or is it you that acts differently now? Message you ask you important things also no reply. Sometimes i think it's best if i just dont reply your message. I blame myself for helping you so much. It was my mistake after all.

IMY :(

Looking at that particular tumblr post that you post about me really makes me remind of the pasts... i really miss u.. :( really missed u alot :'(

In It For Life

There's a time when we try

To begin what is ending
If at first you don't succeed
Then we just end up pretending
If the dream isn't real
Is the lie worth defending?
Close your eyes, cover your ears
Shut your mouth 

You can act naive
But I know you're not stupid 

You'll wake up when I walk out
Isn't that the way it plays?
The leaver leaves, the stayer stays
You wouldn't make a move, so I made mine
Isn't it a pity?
I wish you were really in it for life
I wish that you were in it for life 

What you give is what you get
And what you got's now next to nothing
'Cause the life that you've accepted
Is the one that's least disruptive
Are you aware of the fact
That when I pull, there's no pulling back
You have half the mind, half the heart
Half the will 

You can act naive
But I know you're not stupid 

You'll wake up when I walk out
Isn't that the way it plays?
The leaver leaves, the stayer stays
You wouldn't make a move, so I made mine
Isn't it a pity?
I wish you were really in it for life
I wish that you were in it for life 

Some people talk like they can't hear
Some people walk but get nowhere
And when I'm done with the run I'm going on
I'm sure I'll be
Your biggest regret
You'll never forget 

You'll wake up when I walk out
Isn't that the way it plays?
The leaver leaves, the stayer stays
You wouldn't make a move, so I made mine
Isn't it a pity?
I wish you were really in it for life
I wish that you were in it for life 

Yeah you can run, but you can't hide
'Cause everything you're running from
Is locked inside
So let it the fuck out!

ALL the Same

This is the only song that keeps replaying. Sighs. :(

I am who i am

Yea, I'm single. That's me. Single is fun. Being single can do alot of things. Being single can let me focus on my band. Being single is being one of The GazettE's member. :)

Haunted Pasts

It's been a long time since i last blog. Partly was because of O levels. Now i'm back to blogging. Guess what? i have been sick for the past 11 days and i just went to the doctor. Haha. Today was the day that i went down to my agent and sign my working contract. Guess what? The haunting of the pasts came back again. I hate this feeling. Fucking hate it. Then, the worst part came. That stupid dog came and wait for her. Wanted to go up front and punched him but concious over anger. After seeing that, i just went off and till now, the past keep flashing back. WHY IS THIS EVEN HAPPENING TO ME?!?!?!?!?!?! DOSHITA?!?!?!?! I just feel like dying now. Really.... :'(

Untitled

Today's the start of O level. today was O level science practical. Everything was okay but i so called 'screwed' up my physics due to the graph...-.- Well, gonna work hard for theory paper to pass my science. Yesterday night was kinda funny. I told her to tell him to stop staring at me before i go towards him and punch him in the face. Haha! Well, i do have the thinking. Those punches that im gonna give him is not because of i see him not happy, but more of a particular reason, which i dont like guys to treat his girlfriend in a wrong or different way. After O levels i will deal with him. well, we started talking again eh? I just hope that things can go back to how it used to be last time... I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS. If he finds out that you are reading my blog, i cant really help you.

IT'S NOT OVER


My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you ' or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over

I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever

It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over

The Suicide Circus

This song shows how im feeling everyday. Even now....

Decay of the VISION,

HERE IS A HELL ON EARTH

I FELT A CHILL

THE DISAPPOINTMENT THAT INCREASES

[TICK-TACK…]

NOBODY CAN REWIND TIME.

DON'T LOOK AWAY

SUICIDE CIRCUS

AGED HATRED AND YOUNG COLD-BLOODED MIND

REASON OF THE CHILL

The crawling POVERTY

[TICK-TACK…]

NOBODY CAN REWIND TIME

The shattered MERCILESS SCENE.

People get attracted by the liveliness that seems to choke them.

Even the fear that stuck to your hand I touched

Will fade away sooner or later

METAMORPHESIS

ALL IS PARALYZED

CHAIN REACTION

SYMPATHIZERS WITH A SIMILAR PAIN

Bear the future that won't be saved

And your weakness that went astray

Cut off the depressed self you've lost sight of

And the loneliness you wanted me to experience.

Missing each other in these days of distress,

That suddenly filled up everything in front of your eyes

And your melancholy

Hold this hatred against these words that come from affection

And the exposed madness without regret

I can't return anymore,

I got too entangled in it

EVEN DEATH BECOMES THE PREY

HEARTLESS DAY

BOTTOM OF THE ABYSS

SUICIDE CIRCUS

WHY IS IT REPEATED?

SUICIDE CIRCUS

[TICK-TACK…]

NOBODY CAN REWIND TIME

[TICK-TACK…]

DON'T LOOK AWAY

SUICIDE CIRCUS

People get attracted by the liveliness that seems to choke them.

Even the fear that stuck to your hand I touched

Will fade away sooner or later

METAMORPHESIS

ALL IS PARALYZED

CHAIN REACTION

SYMPATHIZERS WITH A SIMILAR PAIN

Bear the future that won't be saved

And your weakness that went astray

Cut off the depressed self you've lost sight of

And the loneliness you wanted me to experience.

Missing each other in these days of distress,

That suddenly filled up everything in front of your eyes

And your melancholy

Hold this hatred against these words that come from affection

And the exposed madness without regret

I can't return anymore,

I got too entangled in it

EVEN DEATH BECOMES THE PREY

WHY IS IT REPEATED?

[THE SUICIDE CIRCUS]

HEARTLESS DAY

BOTTOM OF THE ABYSS

SUICIDE CIRCUS

WHY IS IT REPEATED?

SUICIDE CIRCUS

JUSTICE DIED

BOTTOM OF THE ABYSS

SUICIDE CIRCUS

WHY IS IT REPEATED?

SUICIDE CIRCUS

The Reason

I once told you that i swear that i hope that the one upstair will give me a reason to screw him up, and here i am, i had a reason to screw him up now. For thinking for so long, finally it's gonna start soon. Just becareful. The one who is very close to you, will get killed. :)

日本と滞在への移行..？

私はいつも日本と滞在に移行するのは、この考え方を持っていた。
シンガポールでの滞在は、どちらか良いことではないからです。
と私はあまりにもあまりにも多くの問題を抱えている。笑い。

私が直面している問題は、愛、友情ですか？笑う
私はのんきなライブをしたい。
私は新しい人生を始めるために日本へ移行したい。

私はそこに新しい生活を始めようとするのすべてを忘れるために試してみたい。
よく、私はそれが私のために可能かもしれないと思う。
すでにボーイフレンドを持っているから。笑い

ちょうどあなたが幸せに見てシンガポールに住んでいる私のポイントは何ですか？
私はむしろ日本に移行し、あなたを忘れるために滞在する。
私は"私はあなたを逃す"ことを伝えるために欲しがっているが、
しかし、今私はあなたにそれを言うことは文句を言わない。笑う。
よく、私は言わなければならないことのすべてだと思います。
私はあなたtpが表示させたくないので、私は意図的に日本にこのブログの記事を行います。
笑う。



私はSCANDAL機能を利用するには日本に行きたい！
私のガールフレンドまたは姉妹がどのように私はRINAを希望でしたか？笑う
私と私の想像力！