Thursday, September 13, 2012

The Start Of My New Life, As A Poly Student...

It has been a long time since I last blog. Well, all those previous posts was kinda emo shit though. Alright, enough of dwelling the pasts and I shall talk about the present now.
17th April was the official start of Poly. Well, for Republic Poly. The first day of school went well for me, until I slowly get to know all of my crazy classmates. They were kind of funny, sociable and friendly too. Not to forget helpful ! I shall name a few classmates. Haha ! :D First is Bruce, Who is a little bit of an asshole at times, but, he has a kind heart. When I was sick, he drove me to Causeway point to see the doctor. He even waited for me. This I must really thank him from the bottom of my heart. If he had never send me to causeway point to see the doctor, I would have collapse and sent to the hospital due to high fever. Another classmate is Nicholas, aka James. He is the most  funniest person of all, and to put it in a way, a joker. Hahaha ! He is actually very easy to disturb but at the same time, he is a bit of smart. Although he always ask me to help him "da bao" food.  Well, I sometimes don't like my classmates joking around saying that I fail my BTT. Yes, I failed 2 times, but at least I bother to retry again. Well, now is end of semester 1, and when semester 2 starts, we will be splitted up and with our new classmates. I will miss them a lot. Here's a picture of my crazy class. :D

 Next, is this special girl that I wanna talk about. Her name is Charley. She step into my life on 23th May 2012, and we have been together for 3 month plus now, soon going to be 4 months. And here's our crazy love story. It all began when school starts, we barely talked to each other, and out of boredom, I decided to disturb her everyday. The moment when she enter the facilitator room everyday, I would say this to her " Eh ! Wrong class ! Wrong class ! " Haha ! How funny it was. Then, a lot of crazy stuffs begin to happen. I was in this team, with this china girl, name Xin Ling, and at the same time, the same team with Charley as well. We were having Engineering Design then. I started having a small crush on Xin Ling, and then, when I got her number like 2 weeks later, I begin texting her..  Then, at the same time I decided to get Charley's number as well. Everyday I would text Charley, asking her for help. Haha ! She would always help me out and giving ,me advises. Soon, I slowly start to realized that Xin ling was just an Eye candy after all, as I have started to develop feelings for Charley. Everyday we would text each other, cheer each other up when we are down. 2-3 weeks later, I started to confess to her, I thought that it was impossible for us to be together as after all, she was 2 years older than me. But I remember telling her that in Love, age does not matter at all, and I prove her wrong. I still remember I always call her Auntie, Maria and all sorts of funny names.23rd May 2012 marks the day we got together, And this was the first couple picture that we ever took !
Since that day till now, these past 115 days of being together, we have gone through thick and thin, ups and downs, and lots of quarrel. I know, you have always feel that you are in the wrong and you always the one who start the quarrel first. But I have to say, all of us are in the wrong too. Sometimes I'm the one who start the quarrel first. I know, I'm a fickle minded person. I'm sorry for all the things that I had done. But other than all these, we have been through happy times too. Each day that I'm with you, I fell more deeper in love with you. You are my one and only girl that I will be with and nobody can ever replace you in my heart. I know, other than this, we have other problems like family problems. I know that your dad is such a jerk that he doesn't wanna give you all money to eat, making you all skip meals and just eat one meal per day. I know this sucks and sometimes I feel like just whacking him but I can't. The more I look at how worst your family situation is, the more I feel and think that I must work hard and provide you a good living environment and not to stay in this kind of shitty environment. I want to give you a good life. Other than that, is my family side's problem. I know, My sis had been talking about you, saying those words that hurt your feelings. I'm very sorry for that. And as for my mum, I know she want me to find a girl who is younger than me and more pretty. But like I said, I will never ever find other girls other than you as you are my one and only Baby girl that I will ever want to be with till death do us apart. Now it's passed 12am !  Happy 116th Days Baby ! I love you ! <3



Saturday, March 3, 2012

3/3/2012

3rd March 2012, today is the very day that you had stepped into my heart.... ^^ Had alot of fun time together, jamming, looking at you learning to play the drums so seriously. and you improved alot although you just started learning today ! Haha.. and you were also so cute. we walked so fast yet you are trying to catch up with us. Guess what ? And you almost lost your way. Hahaha :P I hope that i can see you again.. real soon.. ^^

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

The Momentum

I wonder what's this feeling that im having now ? I really wished I can know it too. Lets take Friend A and Friend B for example. Friend A asked Friend B to go out to watch movie tmr, B was excited at first, but after 20 mins, A told B that "Tmr i cant make it. Very Sorry". B has no feelings at first, and said "nvm, it's alright :) ". But soon, B felt abit disappointed and he just....totally shut himself out. Things was going easy at first, But soon it started to change, and B is just at his own wits end, going to break down at any moment now, but he still managed to stand strong.
Now, How i wished things can really just change for the better.

How i really wished that she could see this now... :



" Save your heart
For someone that's worth dying for
Don't give it away
Torn apart
Never getting what you've been crying for
It's always the same"

" Save your heart
For someone who leaves you breathless
And I know that you're scared
Seems like someone said you had it in you
All along you said you knew this was wrong
But still worth dying for"




 I felt like crying but i just cant. But deep within me, my heart is crying and shedding the tears of blood.. :')

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Can i just drink and get knock out and just cry out all of my feelings like a bitch ? really cant take it anymore. I just wanna die ! emoing forever eh ? haha. Guess i was too naive :')



































Ps : I will respect your decisions :')

Monday, January 23, 2012

It's time

It's been a long time since i last blogged. Things really happened alot. Went to Penang just 2 weeks ago. It was fun. But other than these, Some things still happened. I had given her to you and thought that you would take care of her for me. Instead, You made her cry alot of times and you even restrict her of doing things like asking her not to text other guys ? What the fuck is the meaning of this ? Hah ! Seriously what the fuck are you thinking ? Are you still treating her as your girlfriend or are you treating her like your puppet ? Please la, she has her own private life too. How about me controlling your fucking life and asking you to do things for me ? Would you like it ? I SERIOUSLY HATE GUYS WHO BULLY GIRLS AND MAKE THEM CRY. Whats more ? Come on, haha, seriously, GROW UP LA. Stop being a Childish kid. Yea, Im waiting for her FOR ONE YEAR PLUS. The reason that i dont wanna get into a relationship is because of her. Im still waiting for her, I cant forget her. If you cant treat her well, just let me do it. After all, you are the one who snatched her away from me. Im will be waiting for that day to come.Stop treating her BADLY ! I swear man, dont let me see you in the streets. Or i will make you cry like a bitch. I really cant stand to see her crying every time. Enough is enough. It's time for you to fuck off from her. Cause you aint worth her tears.