Recently there is just too much problems. And mainly is just because of relationship. Yes, Relationship. And it's just how funny that I'm actually losing feelings for my own girlfriend since few months back. Every time when there are problems, she will tend to make it big. And worst of all, always hanging the sentence "I'll leave you" or "Let's Break up" at her mouth. I'll always tend to make things better again because I know that I can and just because I love her too much. Now? Things are much more different, until 1 month back when she decided to really break up with me, my heart is already dead. Coming to a point of just giving up.
Guess what? When I met new friends, eventually I met this girl. The way she talks and put a smile on people, really attracts me. But what I'm about to say next, is the worst nightmare and pain that nobody can ever imagine. We talked to each other everyday, and eventually exchanged numbers. And this is where things gets a little bit Fucked Up. I was so devoted to this girl that when my girlfriend wanted to change and want me back because she loves me a lot, I didn't even think twice about it and just heck care her because my heart was already with this girl.
This girl here, had the same interest and hobbies as I am. Both of us are into music, which is another plus point for me. I talked to her, hang out with her, and that's where feelings starts to come in. I started going head over heels for her, doing the things that she wanted to do for a long time, like writing songs etc. She here, has her own relationship problem, which was exactly the same as mine. Quarrelled everyday, and eventually, shit happens. She broke up one month back, and last night she asked me this, "One day if I have a boyfriend, will you still treat me as good as now?" Which I already knew that most likely she will patch back with her ex. And tada ~ I'm right. I hit the nail 100%. To be honest, My girlfriend wanted me to be back by her side, but I rejected because of this girl. I don;t know what I did was right or wrong, But the way I treat her, is like a princess. And now after hearing what the girl told me, my heart literally sank.
I don't know what to do either. But I guess I had already make the decision. I think it's best if I leave her and just back off. Yes, I may like this girl, but deep down in me, I still love my girlfriend more. Life is just so fucked up. I drank all the way making myself drunk and just forget everything. And now, I guess I had make my decision. I'll win my girlfriend back and guessed what? It's our 25th months together..
To Princess: I hope the choice that you had made, will not make you regret. And I wish you all the best. May our path cross one day in the next life. And last long with your boyfriend. I'll always be there for you as a close friend. Although I may have gone back to my girlfriend, But I just want you to know that I will still help you no matter what. Even if he hurts you, I'll crush his skull and send him to hell. And last but not least, may you be happy always, Don't always cry and be strong. Don't let him hurt you again. Always remember what I said because I won't be there any more to remind you and put a smile on you. And try to forget the boy who puts a smile on you everyday as time pass by... Things will get better I guess....
