Monday, November 29, 2010

(L)

Finally decided to put my focus on one person! :D :D OMG! She is so cutee! (L)!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

This feeling that im having now, is really..... really unexplainable......

why do i have this feeling that im hurt? i just cant get over it... someone please tell me what to do? really... since we are starting anew, why do i always had this feeling that something is really not right? why do i feel so much pain and sadness more than before? why cant i feel happy? ever since  both of us start anew, i feel pain.. more pain, the feeling is like your heart had just been stabbed by a thousand knifes. All i see are a broken reflection of the two of us, that cant be fixed back together again... we were just trying to grow up and move on with our life. but i cant promised you that i can move on. this feeling just hurts alot... everytime i turn back and look at the past, i would always hear your voice, your laughter.... it just cant make me stop thinking of you...but thinking of you,  my heart will cry alot... instead of sheeding tears, my heart just shed droplets of blood, those droplets of blood, shows how much im hurt. i just hope that things really can be how they used to be like last time.. but well, i guessed that.... a broken reflection of two of us, is really very hard to fixed back again.... it will just crack more and more... and eventually, shattered into million pieces....... how i really wished...... that the time will just stop for awhile...... really... :(




SCANDAL~ <3
Haruna, Tomomi, Rina and Mami~ <3

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Namida No Regret (The tears of regret)

Namida No Regret

The tears of regret spilled after I smiled
On to the glistening street that we started to have feelings for each other
With a little nod, we bid our goodbyes.And we start to move on.

i was waiting to forget you
Twilight seems to approach slowly
i wondered,We didn't look bad as a couple didnt we?

In the window glass
I saw the broken reflection of the two of us
We were trying to grow up

At an old temple
You joke about breaking up
With that subtle face
I still know what you were thinking
Even with my eyes closed

My tears weren't about the heartbreak
Up until now, I still loved you
When we began to say goodbye
I couldn't promise you that we could move on

When we were talking on the phone
My hand trembled in pain
When you said that it was only puppy love

I still hate hearing that
I should have endure the life in the city

The tears of regret spilled after I smiled
On to the glistening street that we started to have feelings for each other
With a little nod, we bid adieu
And we start to move on

I only feel that I begin to hate myself trying to be strong
Every time I look back at my loss
I would hear your voice

I don't know if I can bear it
But I can't help to keep moving on
We'll see

I hold my tears
I keep hearing words
Saying that one day it'll be hard for me
But it's a real farewell
It's a promise that we can't take back

The summer that we had disappears

Second Chance....

Haha... ytd was quite a happy day for me i guess? O.o well.....im glad that both of us have the second chance to start everything anew... having this second chance, i will prove everything to you, be a more better guy, more caring towards you.... cuz you are the only girl that i cant afford to loose again... cuz deep down in your heart somewhere, i knew that you still love me... after all i have done, the things that i do was to hurt you... i will never do anything right to make you feel better.. in the past, all i did was hurt you... but this time round, this second chance will let me prove to u,  amend the things that i have done wrong that hurt u in the past..... anyways, i hope you enjoy ur bbq today. haha! ^^ i hopethat things will work and go well for us......



         
SCANDAL~ <3
Haruna, Tomomi, Rina, and Mami~ <3

The tears that i shed for you now, is meaningless already.....

I knew this was coming... I knew that you and him will be together once again.. You dont need to lie from me. I know you, when you tell me that you dont want to be with him, you lied. What's the point of lying to me when it doesnt benefit you? Why bother asking me if im sad or not when you know that i will really be sad? Do you even know that i was shedding my tears for you? Why am i bothering myself to shed a single tears for you? Because, deep down in my heart, i still love you. But, whatever i said now is no use. I hope that you and him last long. After i have done, all i wanted was you two to be together. I sacrificed alot for you.. So please, cherish this chance again. Maybe from now on, i may not even shed a single tear for you anymore. Trust? Haha. Do you remember this word? "trust"? I hope you still remember. But now, i now that you have decided to be together with him again. So dont screw up the chance that i have created for both of you again. I sacrificed everything just to see you two together. Well, goodbye.... Things wont go back to how they were anymore.... Till this moment, you will never know how much pain i have felt from doing this. I know im stupid, but its worth it. :')




Sayonara My Friend~
SCANDAL!~ <3
Haruna, Tomomi, Rina and Mami!~ <3

Monday, November 15, 2010

This feeling.........

Day 2 now eh? you still look the same to me, still sad.. i can see that you are very sad about what happened.... you are just forcing yourself to be happy. things wont work well for you if you continue to be this way. i know you are sad, and so do i. but i chose to keep it to myself. how i wish that we have one last chance to be together again but i dont think its impossible now... looks like things really change alot for us eh?  i know i used to be so caring towards you..... haha... i still remember those times that we have....but things will slowly fade away i guess? i hope you are doing well...  dont get sad over this... i hope you get over with this soon... i know i always said this to you when you are down.. "No matter what happen, i will always be there for you'.... haha. remember that time that i told you that i dont want to see you emo and if i caught u emo, i will buy u an elmo? haha. those were the times....... I'm sorry for treating you like that.... i have hurt you so much.. i dont deserve to be with you..... and maybe, i will take this time to be alone and reflect on my own....... till this day, i will never forget those days...  what i really want you to do is... FORGET ABOUT ME and move on.....

 


SCANDAL BABY!~ <3
SCANDAL LOVE!~ <3
Haruna, Tomomi, Rina and Mami!~ <3

What is Love?

Well, this is getting kinda nowhere. I  know that whatever i do, to you, will always be wrong. I know that i was the first one who was cold towards you. But you have to understand, my O level Exams is stressing me out like shit. But im trying my best to chat with you, juggling both my exams and you. But i know, the decision that i made yesterday, hurts you alot and im really sorry. Im just not compatible with you. I hope that one day you will find your own happiness, find someone who is much more caring than me... In my heart, you are the first girl that lights up my life. You want me to change myself, i really did... thanks. :') although those memories that we have, i will try to keep it. good luck for your future. well,  my last word to you is, Take care my friend~ This is the final goodbye to you~ :')




SCANDAL~ <3
Haruna, Tomomi, Rina and Mami!~ <3